How long is too long?

I am actively reading other bloggers posts about their IF journeys and sometimes this gives me strength to keep trying and other times it makes me feel worse about my situation. How these women can keep on trying for all these years is beyond me. I simply do not understand how they can stay strong that long. I know for a fact I would not be able to do it, I can barely do it now. For the last two years hubby and I haven't been "trying" but we haven't been preventing either. I don't know if I include this in my TTC timeline or if I just start from last month when I got serious about having a baby. It's been a concern of mine for at least a year, so I suppose I will say I've been TTC for a little over one year. There's a blog I read where this woman has been trying for 10 years! Obviously she has struggled and still does, but she remains positive through it all, and here I am barely holding it together.

I am in between insurance companies right now, I was on my dad's insurance (where I could have remained until I was 26 had I not gotten married) and now the insurance my current job offers is awful and way to expensive for how cruddy it is. So I gathered up all of my pay stubs for the last month and I am headed for this clinic a couple towns over. They go off your income, and I know I will still pay a good amount but it's the only place that will take me without insurance. A good friend of mine suggested I go there, and it's the place that did my grandma's free cancer screening that found out she had ovarian cancer. So I trust them. I just don't know how much they can help me. It's only an OBGYN, but I did read on the website they offer some help with IF problems. So we will see I suppose. I need to set up an appointment, but I am nervous. I figure I will wait until after finals week.

I feel like I have completely lost my mind this week. There is a younger girl at my job that has been lying about a pregnancy for months now and it's close to her "due date" and she is quitting. I try not to say much about it when other staff members bring it to my attention that she is so obviously not pregnant, but last night it really got to me and I got fired up about it. I ran my mouth to a manager about how some of us can't have kids and that karma was gonna bite her in the ass and blah blah blah...I feel bad assuming someone would lie about this, but I absolutely feel it in my gut that she is. She's young, only about 18, and has had a hard year....but there's no excuse for this. I just want her to leave, be out of my sight so that I don't end up going off on her! I feel so angry around her that I literally feel like I could hit her...Who does something like this?

Anyhow, that's about all I have to say.